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From Donna's Journals

a letter to all who journeyed with me for a while
January 30, 2002

by Donna Rose Stewart

I've been going through an especially difficult time: mid-life crisis, perhaps? I was feeling really "bad" that I had gotten so off track with what I believed I came here (on earth) to do. During my soul searching, I realized that I had been feeling guilty for leaving my marriage and husband 23 years ago, and that I'd been carrying this guilt around with me all this time! I'd been trying to make up for my "failed" marriage by giving way too much of myself and by putting up with behavior that, otherwise, I never would have allowed in my life. I adopted the values, interests and desires of other people, while ignoring my own needs. I punished myself by not allowing myself to sing or to be happy, on any consistent basis. After all, I didn't deserve it, did I? - Wow, what a "trip" I put myself through!

Even though I had never considered the possibility of guilt around this issue (as it had taken me over a year to make the decision - through much prayer and meditation - until I knew in my heart and soul that it was the right thing to do), I (now) wondered if I had made a mistake in leaving, all those years ago. If I had stayed, I would still be singing and, thus, "on track" (I reasoned).

And then, a couple of nights ago, I realized that because of this decision, not only can I sing, I can dance and I can teach. I can now do many things that I never dreamed of or would have wanted for myself, such as: management (ladies' clothing, fitness clubs, health foods), aerobics and fitness instruction, body-building, massage therapy, computers and the internet, bookkeeping and accounting, running my own businesses, etc. If I hadn't made such a difficult decision, I would never have done these things, had the experiences I have had, been where I have been and met all the other people that I have, etc. I would not be the woman that I am today.

I've been through "heaven & hell" to get to where I am - I've learned about life in this world and can relate to almost anyone in one way or another. My journey has helped me to help others, and I have so much more to offer because of the life that I've lived. I chose to follow that voice inside of me and "not the way of the world."

I am grateful, after all, to be here. And I am grateful to all of you who journeyed with me for a while (regardless of whether things appeared "good or bad" at the time). I have grown because of you and I'd like to thank you for the energy, time, and love that you shared with me. I am a better person for having met and known each and everyone of you. I remember you with love . . . . I hope that you remember me in the same way.

Revised: January 6, 2003
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